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“I have little left in myself — I must have you. The world may laugh — may call me absurd, selfish — but it does not signify. My very soul demands you: it will be satisfied, or it will take deadly vengeance on its frame.” ― Jane EyreOne thing you should know before you start: you might be too curious about me if you even considered clicking on this website. I understand the irresistible temptation of being loved, being yearned for, being seen, and being heard—all at once. It almost always lures in those who have been deprived of it, and I am here to offer you exactly that. I have so much affection in me that it has become a major nuisance as I grew up surrounded by an abundance of it. And yet, here I am, deranged enough to offer it up with both palms, solely for you and you alone. By proceeding, you agree to have someone as mad, as insane, and probably as obsessive as me haunting your days with my presence. Consider yourself warned, yeah?It wouldn’t be fun if I revealed too much about myself. You will never truly know who I am. But it wouldn’t be a fair game if I demanded you tell me everything about yourself while keeping myself hidden, so I’ll let you piece together what kind of person I might be based on my tale—more like my nonsensical ramblings below.First things first: at my core, I identify as a genderfluid queer. I go by any pronouns, though I’m mostly addressed with masculine ones. Honestly, call me anything. From baby to bitch, sayang to jalang, and I’ll answer, especially if you get creative about it. My affection doesn’t hinge on strict binaries. I don’t care what gender you are or what labels you carry. To me, you are human, you are touchable, you are lovable and that’s all that matters. If that bothers you, then perhaps we were never meant to breathe the same air anyway.By nature, I don’t fit easily into boxes, and God, do I hate being forced into one. I’m not dominant or submissive. I don’t bend easily to pre-written scripts. I love to pamper and be pampered, to worship and be worshipped in return. I am a switchblade disguised as velvet: gentle when I want, cutting when I need, sharp enough to leave marks, soft enough to kiss them after. I don’t believe in rigid roles as I believe in balance, in partnership, in loving each other like a holy war and a home all at once. That means I don’t care about your gender or your assigned sex at birth. As long as you’re human, I’ll see you as someone I could love with all my heart.Here goes the fun part. I won’t tip you off immediately regarding my personality types—MBTI, zodiac, Enneagram, all that. Instead, I’ll describe myself in a way that feels the most accurate. Though, if you scroll down, you might end up saying either, “Oh, figures,” or “No way, what the hell.”For one, I’m introverted, but that doesn’t mean I’m invisible. I’m the kind of introvert that flickers on and off, one moment a ghost, the next moment flooding your feed with chaotic bursts of thought. I treasure my solitude, but every once in a while, I’ll set the world on fire just to feel the warmth of being seen. I favor logic over emotion—though recently, I’ve started believing that both should work together to achieve the best outcome. I’m good at taking initiative, but sometimes, you’ll have to poke me hard because there are moments when I’m dense enough not to pick up on things, no matter how obvious they are. Other things to consider are I’m sharp-witted, foul-mouthed, straightforward—and yet, somehow, still capable of folding myself into the softest places in the people I love. Energy is currency to me, and I spend it carefully, not wastefully. If I give you my attention, my time, my heart, do know that it’s both deliberate and sacred as my overall energy, by default, leans to reserved. I personally believe the energy I have in me must be spent wisely; otherwise premature energy drain may occur and it won’t make any involved party happy at all. Also, despite my supposedly mature age, I do have a tiny child in me—they rarely come out, but sometimes they’d jump out unexpectedly. I am a wildfire you survive, more or less, in your own way. I am a sanctuary you find only after being lost. I am the storm and the safe harbor, the knife and the kiss, the chaos and the calm stitched together.A human is not without flaws, so I’ll tell you this without shame: I am not perfect. I’m stubborn, to the point of self-sabotage sometimes. I overthink until the edges of reality blur. I disappear into myself when the world gets too loud. I bottle things up, not because I want to shut everyone out, but because I’m still learning that vulnerability isn’t a weakness. When I am hurt, I don’t always bleed openly. Sometimes, I seethe in silence, nursing the wound until I can face it on my own terms. But when I do let people in, when I pull back the walls brick by trembling brick, there is no one more devoted, no one more faithful, no one more willing to burn the whole damn world down to protect the ones I love. I am reckless with my hope and heavy-handed with my longing. I will frustrate you, challenge you, force you to face parts of yourself you thought you buried. But in return, I promise you will get the kind of love that doesn’t flicker—it burns so strong you’ll wonder why it feels both so good and so consuming at the same time. You get a loyalty that snaps jaws around your enemies’ throats. You get a devotion that kneels, bites, claws, worships. Probably this is a little bit terrifying, that I am so open about myself and my depths within, but I honestly believe that in order to love fully, I have to be fully bare. Stripped down to the core, revealing jagged edges and trainwrecks of disheveled thoughts. I’m not meant to fit everyone’s cup, but I’ll make sure to fill the right one to the brims.Now, onto the most important part—love itself. The very reason I’m here, too. For me, love isn’t ordinary; it’s something consuming, something cathartic. I don’t give love in tiny spoonfuls. I give it like a flood, like a weapon, like a religion. I see you in ways most people are too afraid to. I listen like the world could end in the next breath and your voice would be the only thing that mattered. It didn’t come naturally as I moved through life; sometimes, it was offered to me by people with different interpretations of it, and other times, I had to forge my own understanding. As I’ve mentioned above, too, I grew up drowning in affection, enough to know it can be both blessing and curse. So now, I give it purposefully, ruthlessly. I will love you with hands too full, heart too heavy, mouth too reckless. I will love you like no one else dared to—fully, obsessively, without an exit plan, which is why obsession and possession—yes, as metaphors—fascinate me. Love, to me, isn’t just a feeling; it’s a hunger, a longing to know and be known so deeply that it feels almost primal. It’s the desire to intertwine two lives in ways that leave an imprint long after the moment has passed. This might sound overwhelming to some, but hey, I believe in warning people upfront.As for interests—something that might serve as our common ground—I’m into sci-fi and thriller movies/series, while historical fiction is my go-to book genre. When it comes to music, though, I’m more of an experimentalist. I constantly dig through and discover artists and songs that don’t even align with my default tastes, but at my core, I’m always a slow/ballad/alt-indie kind of guy. I have a habit of browsing through lesser-known artists and singers because I’m edgy like that. Oh, and I’m into animanga, though I wouldn’t call myself a hardcore fan. Moving further, I also possess a deep interest towards human behavior and psychoanalysis. It sort of serves as my anchor, as I’m not the best in keeping myself centered. That said, I’m naturally a curious person. Any kind of topic would draw me in, especially if you have sufficient knowledge regarding it, though my favorite ones are current social issues, SOGIESC, science, trivia, and history. I do think I have certain fondness for human, despite their profound complexity. Perhaps it is because I am endlessly fascinated by human nature, by the way we break and rebuild ourselves over and over again and how we’re a temple and a ruin at the same time.So, is this enough to keep you intrigued? If yes—again—you’ve been warned.

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General RegulationsUpdate: As of now, I can only be reserved for platonic meetings.1. My service is only for accounts with minimal to no exposure of your real-life matters (CA, BA, and alike). That said, posting your face and/or body in your account, even before meeting me, is strictly prohibited.2. You must be of legal age to use my service platonically and I’m only comfortable dating someone aged 23 and above.3. My working hours would heavily depend on my real-life job, but typically, it’s flexible with limited interactions when I’m at work.4. I will only take one client for daily and half-day packages. I may take up to three clients for hourly sessions.5. Hourly sessions are only available until 1 AM GMT+7 on weekdays, unless I deliberately offer myself after that hour, which means I am capable of taking you within your desired timeframe.6. Available platforms are X and Telegram. Other platforms are available upon agreement.7. Reservations can only be made through my manager. In cases where she is unable to assist you in a timely manner, you can also directly head to Backyard Garden’s bot.8. I reserve the right to refuse your form shall there be anything that I’m not confident doing or if it isn’t something I can possibly do at all. The reason and proper explanation will be disclosed for the sake of transparency.9. Refunds are not allowed on your end, but rescheduling is possible. Refunds may be issued if the session must be cancelled for major reasons which render me unable to complete it.10. I tend to give sporadic replies (I’m talking hours) especially when I’m working, but I’ll reply fast whenever I’m on my phone and before/after work. You reserve the right to cancel the session and get refunded if I go missing for more than 6 hours without prior explanation.11. Privacy is the utmost priority. Just as I respect yours, you are expected to respect mine. Talks about real life are inevitable, but avoid being pushy about it.12. Sending VNs and photos is allowed so long as it’s kept within the SFW area and does not show anything related to your real-life identities, your face, and your body.13. If you wish to do steamy sessions with me, do note that I don’t feel comfortable sending and receiving any lewd/sexual imagery.14. I’m open to discussions regarding any concerns prior to the session. If there is an issue bothering you in the middle of the session, you may address it to me. I reserve the right to make my manager our middle ground if it remains unsolved despite our attempts. Should there be anything unclear from this page, shooting a question would work best to satisfy and grow a mutual understanding between both parties.15. As much as I enjoy our time together, you can only meet me for a maximum of seven consecutive days. There must be a space of a week in between before seeing me again.16. While it is not always mandatory, filling in testimonials after conducting a session with me is encouraged. Either I’ll send it personally to you or my manager would do it on my behalf.

Personal Boundaries1. My personality and how I type cannot be altered, regardless of my role and/or face claim. I’ll be more lenient on my punctuation usage, if you wish that way.2. While I generally don't mind much, I'd appreciate it if you would wait for me to finish typing my replies before sending another one.3. I can be hardheaded and opinionated about something I firmly believe in, and you're more than welcome to tell me if I go overboard with my responses.4. Due to the irregular nature of my real-life job, I'd spend most of my days sleeping. I'll inform you if I'm about to hit the hay or if I have other matters I need to settle.5. Related to the point above, I'd be the perfect fit for low-maintenance relationships, where demands are low or practically nonexistent.6. I don't have any personal triggers, nor am I easy to offend; thus, if you love continuous playful banters with borderline or extremely offensive jokes thrown in the middle, we're definitely meant to be.7. Despite being immune to practically everything, I would still want you to be respectful, unless we’re doing a trope that stated otherwise. Shitty remarks that are purposefully said to offend protected categories and similar subjects will automatically result in a warning. Twice it happens and I’ll take you to a long sermon. Do not try the third is all I can say.8. I'm not the type to talk much, but this also depends on our overall vibes and energy. If you're talkative, I'll certainly try to keep up with your pace and vice versa.9. Avoid sharing anything regarding myself with the public without my consent. The same goes for you; I will only do yours with your consent.10. While I enjoy doing PDA, I’m mostly casual about it. I don’t do well with graphic editing, so there won’t be much of it. I’ll go bigger with words instead, and it is advised to tell me in details about how you exactly want me to do it for you.11. Outside of the session, I’ll see you as a friend, thus, any interaction thereafter is welcomed. However, I can’t guarantee a quick response due to my limited energy.12. Regarding closing of a session, unless you make it clear on the form, I will do it in the way I see fit—be it in a form of casual goodnight or something more proper.

*Prior discussion shall be made as what’s available on your place may not be available on mine.

I’m open to any other dates not mentioned above. Please contact my manager for further arrangements.